It's been awhile since I last blogged and I am now down to 154lbs which rocks cause the last time I lost weight I couldn't get passed 155. I am so excited to see a number lower than 155 on the scale even if it is just a pound it's a start to smaller and better numbers.
I have been working a lot on getting over fears I have had since I was a child, and I conquered a big one the other night. I actually got up on a stage in front of a live audience and sang by myself. Most of you are probably going big deal that's not hard, but for me it was terrifying. I pushed through the fear and did a great job. In fact some people I know who are in the music business were there and they want me to do some songs with them on an album they are going to be working on, and I was told I should do a contest called Talent Quest next year by the regional representative. Needless to say I will be doing it again and again until I am completely comfortable on stage. This was a huge fear and now that I have done that I am going to continue to be conquering as many fears as possible.
I want to share a little bit from a book I have been reading that gives me strength to realize that life is what we make it not what other people say it should be. We all make our own story and other people's stories aren't ours. This is out of The Voice of Knowledge by Don Miguel Ruiz:
"How do we live our life? This is our art, the art of living. With our power of creation, we express the force of life in everything we say, everything we feel, everything we do. But there are two kinds of artists: the ones who create their story without awareness, and the ones who recover awareness and create their story with truth and with love."
I am recovering my awareness of all the lies I have told myself through the years and writing a new story for myself. I hope as I do this I can help others realize that they can do whatever they set their minds to and nobody can create their story except for themselves. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you can't do something it's your story YOU write it.
Congrats Amanda!!! I am super impressed and awestruck reading about you getting up in front of people and singing. I can't do that. I did that once in high school at church and it was a disaster and just can't do it... even when I am in New Orleans too drunk to even walk! haha. too much self terror to do that. I like the quote from the book. Sounds like you are doing great!
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